How are you doing?

You are asking me how I am doing these days... How am I supposed to answer that? It is a often just a polite greeting, so no elaboration required.

Everyday, I go to my office where my neatly arranged table is located, talked to different people, ring a couple of external agencies and finished some reports. I used to do my defined part in protecting my country, creating some wonderful works so that my clients could sell their companies in the best light. 

Now? I sit before my laptop in the office, deciding what is right, what is necessary. I swear some of my colleagues do not buy my theory of "Sometimes, you need to stop helping someone, in order to actually help them". Just one month ago, a co-worker came up to me and told me that one of my ex-client whom she just interviewed, was cursing me during the interview. Saying that I was unhelpful and completely useless to her. I smiled at her and told my co-worker, that was the help I offered. Probably a concept that my co-worker and that particular client would not understand. That day went on just like another day. It is wrong to say my job is a thankless one. I have received Chinese New Year card, a thank you call, a GEMS compliment and a couple of emails showing their gratitudes. I treated myself better these days, finishing work on  the dot, taking fridays noon off so that I can do shopping or swimming. I do that so that, I can continue to stay healthy and motivated.

So ya, I tried my best to make sure everything I did is either right or necessary, so that should my heart stop beating in my sleep, I know I have done what I could. That's how I am doing.