FREAK

Last night I was sleeping so bad. must be the two super long weekends side effects. The brain is so active that I kept dreaming of various things and waking up in one hour interval, just like your cable tv series.

I dreamt of reading friends' blogs, going back to work with a ton of papers on my table, on holidays, Travis, my interview with some students and many other things. Disturbing dreams. All of them too short to feel that they are real but yet I know some og them are.

I smsed someone apologising that I have sometimes forgot that he is just a human too and need some comforting words. From time to time, I sometimes forgot friends need emotional supports too, and assume they are old enough to manage their feelings, especially friends who works in the social services. Yes, I tend to express myself and my thoughts too freely in blogs or face to face and assume everyone do the same as well. Sometimes, I dun even ask how they are feeling.

If you think I am being emotional here, I am not. I am in my Adult Bryan mode. I have always understand myself as a three-in-one person, supporting each other effectively and resulting a quick bounce back from a lot of things I faced. LS told me that he compartmentalised his feelings, I supposed I managed by having three persons compartmentalising their own feelings. FREAK.