I have been checking my own emotional situation for the whole of last week. Not too good apparently and only made worse cos I really dunno why. At some points, I thought it is because I dun have much to work on and I just feel lethargic. The only thing I did and make me feel good was two swims when the sun was good and an evening jog. Last night, for the first time in two months, I did not log onto the Internet at night. Read 30 pages of The Alchemist, given by Gene, deliberately stopped just before the shepherd cross the straits to Africa. I am not reading much these days. Maybe I should read more, blog less, stop talking and sleep more.
At this point when I am writing in Burger King Concourse, I am suspecting I am showing slight signs of depression. Some unexplainable feelings that I am not even sure how to write them out.
I am so bored that I did not even do my funky hair and just put on a cap. Today's outfit is a complete mismatch of colour. Olive green cap, pink t shirt, blue jean and orange adidas sneakers. What the heck. I even thought of smashing my laptop to display my unhappiness today.
Today is one of those days that Bryan, a naturally happy and positive person slipped into uncertainity. Sometimes, I will let this go on for a while in order to know that I can be my moody self and won't deny myself of any mood swing. I will bounce back again before I know it. An evening jog should help.
If you feel very depressed after reading this posting, watch this (only if you are not really religious and do not blame me for this)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sZb2Ub1Ut4s
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